June 13, 2013

regret



It's said that you should never regret anything because it was "exactly what you wanted at the time". I've been filled with regret lately, and I feel like I've made a lot of stupid decisions this year. I've fallen too hard and too fast, I've spent too much money, I've gone out too much, I've drank too much, I've smoked too much, and I've trusted people too easily. I've really been setting myself up to fail in so many ways and now I'm overcome with regret. Regret is a horrible feeling. It comes like a dream, in flashbacks that make you cringe or hold back tears. You watch the scene unfold countless times in your head wishing you could rewind. But you can't.

We're more or less  halfway through 2013 now and I would give anything to go back to New Years day and start all over. Unfortunately, that's not possible so I just have to somehow try to screw my head back on and keep my fingers crossed that I'll make better decisions in the next six or so months and can learn to live with my regrets. 

As far as the photos above are concerned they're deeply personal but linked with regret all the same. They're actually too personal to even write about, but some of you will know what they mean.

I'm stupid, don't ever talk to me. You'll end up regretting it.


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