The most stressful 5 weeks of my college life (so far) have finally come to an end. On Monday, I handed up my first project for assessment.
I can't even begin to tell you the trauma I've experienced in the making of that work but my God, have I learned from it. From two too many failed film processing attempts to 12 hour days in the darkroom, working on this project has literally pushed me to my limits and tempted me to give up altogether.
For a while, there was a joke floating around that I was haunted when it came to 35mm film photography. Nothing went right for me - nothing.
My first roll of film somehow got completely exposed and therefore came out completely black. My second never even wound through the camera correctly, leaving me with sickeningly clear, lilac negatives. While I was elated to finally have any information at all on my third attempt, more than half were horrifically underexposed and proved near impossible to work with.
Disheartened was not even the word. But I am so proud of myself, I pushed through everything and got 5 relatively decent prints and an overflowing visual research journal at the end of it.
Yes, it was all squashed into the final 3 days of the project and no, my prints were not perfect. But I really can't force myself to care all that much. I did it. I persevered and if I am not commended for that well.. perhaps I will give up.
We'll be getting them back the week after next after a one-on-one feedback tutorial with out lecturers and tutors. I'm nervous, I'm not going to lie. I know an A is out of the question, a B would be.. probably wishful thinking but I'd be absolutely delighted with a C. Oh and a D..? Well I'd rather not think about the possibility of that.
But upwards and onwards? Our second project was launched on Monday also. A 3 picture narrative based on the theme/concept of "A Sense Of Place". We have to produce 2 sets of 3 10x8 black and white prints - one set for our project folders and the second to be exhibited around the school.
Normally when presented with such a precise, bold idea, my head starts racing and I get one clear image or concept that I want. So far.. I've had maybe 2 slightly flat muddy potential ideas. I'm going to have to do a lot of thinking and research before I get stuck into this one - but at least I have until Christmas break to do it!
Until next time,